#love is for children   #love is romantic it is fallible it is unchecked it is remarkable and it is terrifying   #debt is collectable it is finite it has limits it is unremarkable and average and it isn't something to be afraid of   #natasha is so good at lying she can even convince herself that it's a debt   #for a little while   #am i the only one who thinks when tony asks her if they stopped for drive thru on their way to the final battle   #that they actually hooked up   #because it was right after she admitted she was compromised   #and the only way to compromise natasha is emotionally   #because that's the only thing natasha actually has to CONTROL about herself; everything else is habit or embedded in her physical memory   #so when she says she's compromised he knows instantly what she means   #because she knows him like the back of her hand and because of that she knows that HE knows everything about her   #he would never make the first serious move or even the second or third move   #because she's the black widow and above all else you don't force or trap or trick her into anything   #you sit   #with your cards on the table   #until she comes around   #couple: compromised   #movie: crime fighting butts   #avengers spoilers   #it's not a spiral if you're in denial